This difficult and simple attentiveness
First attentiveness
I have always loved looking at nature. From the smallest creatures and phenomena to the biggest ones like a hurricane or large animals. In my youth, however, I was too easily distracted and therefore found it hard to stay in the moment of awe of something. It wasn't until I matured into adulthood during mindfulness practice that I began to notice what factors were taking away my focus. I was often met with astonishment from friends as to why I get so excited about anything. Why, when walking, I can suddenly break away from the group and fix my gaze on a simple leaf lying in the road. It was only in adulthood that I began to understand this, that I was already manifesting a natural and genuine connection with nature and my inner self. I just needed to go through difficult life lessons to strengthen my values. Through this, I was able to understand that I was in fact carrying heaven within me. Now that I know this, I can share my view of the world with the rest of society. By rediscovering my completeness and lack of separation, the random longings for anything disappeared. Born in this, the presence of Me has finally embraced with love all communications from annoyed and puzzled people. The fear of rejection also disappeared in this, as I began to feel that we are all the same space. The only difference is how you see and experience and how you want to see and experience the world. Therefore, for some people mindfulness will be something naturally simple, for others it will be very complicated.
Difficult, because I had automatic inappropriate associations with a kind of strenuous and demanding meditation. At the same time, I was accompanied by fear and an unwillingness to leave everything around for this one moment. I was used to interacting with many stimuli at once. Eating while scrolling through posts, at the same time as chatting with friends, and there still had to be music in the background. Perhaps there are other external factors accompanying you in such a moment. When I took the Focus inside me at that moment, I began to feel everything more subtly. That's why at first I didn't want to and at times was afraid of feeling myself and my body fully. I was not used to this. My habit was directed towards overindulging myself in every moment. I had the beginnings of such unhealthy grooming as a child. Virtually every meal was accompanied by anxious cartoons from famous children's channels. Eating each piece in front of such images was hard. This split attention at the same time turned me on even more to get more excitement from the cartoons.
The fast-paced images of cartoons were accompanied by random sounds in the background of restless music. When a child nurtures his mirage in this way, it is enough to imagine what his e.g. study or work space will look like in the future. It is unfortunately difficult for the young to concentrate on anything. This is reflected in practically every area of life. From school duties to interpersonal relationships. Everything becomes chaotic, random and without quality. I've often wondered why time escapes me so quickly during the day. Since my attentiveness jumped from flower to flower during a single activity, it's no wonder I didn't feel my presence fully during an activity. Every child is of course different and has a different childhood. However, it is worth considering that any factor can contribute to distraction and even lead to addiction. Hence, practising mindfulness is initially challenging, as it requires courage, some sacrifices and practical regularity.
EASY, because it is something pleasant. It was enough for me to just find a place in the present moment that even made me shiver. Then I noticed that this was only the top layer of sensations. Attitude played an important role here. As with everything in human life. Once I had opened myself up positively to experiencing life with my whole self, I took the first step towards mindfulness. I started with small things that were simple for me. At first it was focusing on activities like walking. When you are walking or running you can notice a lot in your body. From changes in breathing, changes in body temperature to the exploitation of water resources in the form of increased sweating. It was only then that I began to understand what it meant to frequently refer to an 'observer's point' perspective. With practice, I was able to be more and more aware of each moment. A simple conversation with someone about any subject became an opportunity to immerse myself fully in the essence of that communication. Over time, I began not only to experience more of myself, but also to feel the emotionality from the other person. It happened that even when she had not yet started to speak I already knew what day and mood she was in. Experiencing life to the full at last proves and realises that meditation can in fact be anything. Without theorising, techniques, methods or dogma. Just pure being here and now becomes mega simple. All I had to do was to want to, change things and let go of certain things from my life. Suddenly I am able to effortlessly experience everything to the full. I can now see and feel the difference of how effortful it was all the time to be mindful, constantly analysing everything and every moment of life. I now appreciate most the silence of my special inner self. ❤
HEALING is again that ATTENTIVENESS
Yes, it is an inherent process of any kind of recovery. More and more neurological and psychological research proves that a person can only concentrate on one activity. Many stimuli at the same time reduce concentration. Tasks completed are then of poorer quality. There are, of course, the concepts of Divided Attention and Multitasking. But there are some differences there.
- Divided attention takes place in a specific area of activity. For example, as a student you listen to the teacher and take notes. Driving is another example. Here you have to be mindful of all sides of the world. Looking ahead, in the mirrors, being alert to a possible overtaking manoeuvre.
- Multitasking , in theory, is a skill where a person does different tasks at the same time. For example, you would be leading a conference while making dinner and contemplating the choice of paint colour for the living room at the same time. Yes, you can do that if you try. However, there will always be a 'switching' between tasks. And it is this switching that scientists debate in their research. During the divisibility of attention above, it also occurs. However, it happens more quickly because of nearby micro-events. In this way, you do not feel as tired. In multitasking, the brain overworks faster because it jumps frequently to tasks that are too far apart.
The golden rule for doing several things at once, effortlessly and efficiently
Only if one of the activities is mastered to perfection. Then you do it so automatically that you don't give it a second thought. This allows you to incorporate a second activity that already requires thinking, for example. Take, for example, perfect vacuuming with active participation during a remote activity on a Bluetooth handset. You only use the element of thinking and analysis in the online lesson activity. Vacuuming, on the other hand, practically happens on its own, based on your muscle memory.
Nevertheless, it is worth practising mindfulness on one activity.Then it is a manifestation of your trust in the moment. When you finally trust that you don't have to chase another thought, you cease to be its servant. You begin to find yourself in the silence just as you were lost in the hustle and bustle. In the moment you have so many options, but by choosing only to observe you return to your inner self.No rushing, no judging. Everything as you then can be indeterminate.You smile at life, at yourself. You feel the thrill of Love from every phenomenon and thing you encounter, like a small child getting to know the world anew.
Gdy powracam do Swego ciała
mogę wybrać gdzie Moje miejsce
Now that I have recalled the language in which My Body has always called out to Me for attention, I can establish My entire being in peace. The full breath of the breast and My expression towards creation bring Me back to the mechanisms ofregulation. I reconnect with the natural world. And this is all thanks to the change in Me. No more looking outside.
I rediscover the intimate secret of the relationship with Myself. I can finally tame my instincts. I am wrapping my fears
and desires with love. And to all reactions from the body, I give full understanding and also wrap them up with love. Because I already know where their source was. All fear and anxiety is gone. All that remains is learning, My present experience and My attentiveness.
I don't control, I let go
I observe, I do not identify and I allow even heavy and sad thoughts to be present. Everything is a part of Me.
If I don't allow myself the given feelings, emotions now, they will come back 😉 . This is one of the most important lessons about our mind. However, letting go of control always seems hard as some sacrifices or practice.
With a smile each day, I know that Life is taking care of me. Why? Because I trust that even the proverbial 'stumbling blocks' have currently been given to me so that I can finally understand the lesson. It is only up to me whether I finally seize the opportunity, and whether I put it off again. And the life lessons that have not been learnt are coming back, only that with a more powerful impact. On the other side of the mirror is just me. By understanding that I am the essence of love I finally create the world from the right sources. For mindfulness to exist, trust is very important. This then allows you to play with practically everything, i.e. all of life. Hence, when dark thoughts, scenarios etc. arise now, I reply with sarcasm "yes love? I don't think so"
The mind disappears when I realise who I am. I am certainly not an emotion. Nor do I need to achieve anything. What matters is experiencing and feeling the moment fully. Hence, I don't need hours of practice, as shorter regularity is enough for me. The greatest art in meditation is to practice under all circumstances. Then I, as my student and teacher, I can see momentarily where My attention wanders. Confidence, humility and lightness of life ❤
Integration of Life in Me
BODY MIND SOUL
